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Postby Zulkile В» 09.08.2019

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Hi all, My name is Monica and I am a compulsive gambler 6 days in recovery. Gambling has taken everything from me. I started in my recovery period from major surgery for cancer 5 years ago when my 14 year relationship ended the day I came out of hospital. I M now unemployed and stoney broke without a penny to my name. Went to GA on Friday after a friend lent me the fare and found it very helpful. Had previously gone to 1 meeting of GA a year previously but it was a disrupted meeting and did not go back.

Just goes to show that it all depends on finding a good group which I now have. This addiction has taken me to the brink of losing my sanity and suicide. On line slots was my poison. I read it takes up to 30 days for the brain to rewire I would gamble on line for very long periods of time and my brain certainly feels at the moment that it is in recovery mode.

My house has a repossession order on it as my last winnings of 2, which I was going to use for bills went straight back into gambling. This is a horrible disease. I am very serious about my recovery as I have personally hit rock bottom. I told my grown up children today that I am very serious about my recovery. They have known for some time but not that the house is getting repossessed.

They were supportive and my daughter is having her own battles with alcohol and also told me that she has hit a turning point same as me. When you cannot even go out of the house because you do not have a penny and benefits don't kick in for six weeks and your home will be repossessed by then that is my rock bottom.

I have read everyone,s posts at length on here Vera, geordie and I have found them helpful. So never underestimate the power of a post. Will let you know how I get on.

There is only one way to go from here one day at a time. E I read everywhere about making a financial plan. I have to live with blowing a months rent and everything in my bank account, no job and no income. I knew I was in trouble when I just could not stop until every penny had gone. I will be evicted before I get any benefits. The guilt I feel about my stupidity keeps coming back at me.

I can't sell anything as I own nothing. I am so tired and exhausted and know I am in withdrawal from my last Binge on slots. On day six recovery now. Over my five years of addiction I have blown hundreds of thousands and before I hit rock bottom I would get my weekly pay and blow all of it within a day. That's over 1k per week.

Not payed bills in months and know that if I do not stop I simply won't be around much longer. Any suggestions s to what to do.

My body aches as well as the exhaustion. Is this a symptom of stopping being a slot aka crack fiend. Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works! We've all been there to one degree or another, Monica. You need time to recover. Time to heal. Time to surrender. Every Rock Bottom has a trap door. Just for today, accept that gambling has you beaten. Tomorrow will bring something new. Keep posting! Thank you for replying Vera.

Yes it has me completely beat. Woke up today feeling sick to my stomach at how insane everything has gotten. My son in law is giving me 40 quid from an old loan that I gave him. Before gambling I was the person everyone came to for a loan. Now I am 1 step away from skid row. Even then, that little voice at the back of my mind said go on gamble with it. Except I am not listening to that stupid voice that has sown the seeds of self destruction.

I have been here before. At the last relapse I was out of work for 4 months, which was a very depressing time. Every day same as the previous one until life finally shifted and then I attracted the same job as the situation I was in ie working for a bankrupt business. I do contract work which is highly paid and I have got into the habit of blowing my weekly pay on gambling. When the relapse starts there is a element of control which very quickly goes out of the window and always ends up in insanity.

So I can never ever gamble again. I know and accept that. I hope when you say for every rock bottom there is a trap door doesn't mean that it is possible to fall even further down or it means a way out! This is certainly a progressive disease with each relapse worse than the last. I need to find that person who I used to be and I agree that it will take time to heal. Gambling also numbs you from feeling anything except your own personal pain.

I have surrendered but do not want to go through the 4 months of absolutely nothing that I did earlier in the year. That was soul destroying. Maybe GA is the difference as I did not go to GA when I relapsed last time or seek the help of the forums which are a lifeline.

I cannot believe that I have got to this place in my life but nevertheless here I am broke and about to lose my home. Whatever it takes my life is not going to end like this. I spent two days blocking every on line casino I had ever played at so at ,east access is limited.

There are still some I haven't played at that I have found but will not be in action on them. It is better than I hate them. I am now an extinct player I am trapped inside my home with everything falling apart around me.

No one understand the depth of how close to the edge I am. I genuinely cannot see a way out and cannot reach it even if there is. My family really do not understand. My ex husband tells me I do not need GA and just need to make one decision to stop. I tell him I have already made that decision. He says I should stop trying to find someone to rescue me. When you can't save yourself where else is there to go?

How bad do things have to get? I am watching the fallout from my last binge and cannot stop it. No one can. I will not be on the street, I would sooner die. No one responds to the posts on here so I guess I am talking to thin air. You are not alone, Monica. Although the lack of support here at times would not convince you otherwise.

I often feel like a rusty gate creaking. If you are really feeling down I suggest you phone the Samaritans. Its a wonderful Service. Always someone on the other end to listen. No judgement. I agree that nobody can rescue a CG but many people can help you to rescue yourself. Help comes in strange ways. I will just make a few suggestions and hopefully, other members here will chip in. I guess most people are busy with their own lives.

Make a list of all the things you have, forgetting for now what you don't have.

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Postby Kezragore В» 09.08.2019

No more sad stories. Hi,all, Got an apology from the poster gambling laid into the fact that i have no emotional support and that neither my addiction or children care. After a truly awful week with more info and stomach pain, I went to GA last gsmbling If there is just one thing i positively dothis week it full to go to GA. I have postman everyone,s posts at length on here Vera, geordie and I have found them helpful. I am sane, gambling compulsively is insane.

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Postby Shalar В» 09.08.2019

I am waiting for my test results as I know something is not right in wholeof my GI system. Not payed bills in months and know that if I do not stop I simply won't be around much longer. Missed you in the chat Liberty. Facing up to the gambling chaos created in my see more, is a task in itself that took me a long, long time to even begin to deal with.

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Postby Dar В» 09.08.2019

I was just saying I was on Geography, biology, English lit, sociology, finance and Religious studies and it is all confused in my little brain! I hope you depression lifts. Phone help from GA no answer after three tries. Http://slotfree.online/gambling-cowboy/gambling-cowboy-coat-women.php is the hardest part, but a key element in recovery.

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Postby Mazulkree В» 09.08.2019

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Postby Kazrajinn В» 09.08.2019

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Postby Kagarn В» 09.08.2019

See you in chat one day soon Postmqn x. I felt like I was invisibly helped and supported today. WE only have Today, Monicau. My brain and body feel tired. West Virginia.

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Postby Dataur В» 09.08.2019

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Postby Shaktigor В» 09.08.2019

I know my children well enough to know they don't place money above other things. Hotlimethank you for the beautiful reply in my thread. We are not defined by our addiction. Can't even watch to as there is so much trash on it!

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Postby Samugami В» 09.08.2019

But I know I must. I hope everything works out with the rent - it will of course because you have Jesus working things out on your behalf. So that is all good. Money or pain.

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Postby Kizragore В» 09.08.2019

I will be evicted before I get any benefits. There was a time here when a member was "missing" for a few days, hootline would be an SOS out for them. Have you stopped posting, Liberty? Just to help you pay this months rent and take care of the basics like phone, electricity, food, etc?

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Postby Kezahn В» 09.08.2019

Good not to be in so much pain as I was. Nowhere to go and nothing to do. I still have urges, but I am trying not to give them anytime to take hold of my thoughts. I taught them that they could fly just like me.

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Postby Yokree В» 09.08.2019

So, very litle damage to my eldest son aside from gambling away any inheritance money. I am still choosing life and hope that life chooses me. The gambling definitely pressed the self destruct button.

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Postby Gajinn В» 09.08.2019

We all need to stop gambling. Thanks for replying Jonny, I feel like I know you and your struggles with gambling from your posts. You are tough. Only you truly know what things demand courage in your life and how you can face them.

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Postby Meztiktilar В» 09.08.2019

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Postby Yonos В» 09.08.2019

You have gamblinf admitted that to yourself. Glad you got a cert from your GP, Monicau. Help is also available via an online peer support forum at www. I am on late shift today so thought I would write and read here.

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Postby Disida В» 09.08.2019

Have you stopped posting, Liberty? Tell her of your problema, since when yambling have this problem. You share your bad times with us sometimes which helps us all.

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Postby Yozshushura В» 09.08.2019

By taming the rush the money starts to fall into place. I have only just remembered that. No more sad stories.

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Postby Neran В» 09.08.2019

Sincerely, Jon. All my issues Were at home as when I came home I would binge gamble. So, do I feel different, yes, I have hope.

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Postby Baktilar В» 09.08.2019

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